In those 15 years, I had my most difficult trial in life but I came out of it better than before. In those 15 years, I graduated and fulfilled my greatest passion. In those 15 years, I decided to focus solely on a single ministry and my involvement was much greater than what I had ever imagined. In those 15 years, I found a decent man who later became my husband. In those 15 years, I had the time of my life planning and materialising my dream wedding followed by the most memorable honeymoon ever!
In those 15 years, I had my first precious boy. That bundle of joy filled me with immeasurable joy and awe. Many firsts and special moments were created. In those 15 years, I decided to homeschool my children and thus, happily resigned from my job. In those 15 years, I had my second precious boy and had great bonding with him in my breast feeding journey. He's the most mischievous and cheekiest boy I've ever taught. He's also the sweetest and most adorable little "koala" I've ever seen.
My boys are now 4.5 and 2 years. Looking back, I know I have not lived those 15 years in vain. God gave me more than sufficient grace in every situation. Even when I went through the darkest valley, He was there waiting for me to see the light. During my happiest and most blissful moments, He was also there. He has never shut me out of His grace and mercy. I know now that it's us humans who subconsciously or intentionally keep God out of our lives.
Standing at the crossroad once more, just as I did 15 years ago, I don't deny I feel more burdened than before. 15 years ago, it was just me. 15 years later, it's no longer solely me. I need to make decisions while taking into consideration my 2 boys. However, I increasingly have this faith that God is with us and will make a way for us. 15 years are gone. My next 15 years will, I'm sure, be filled with much more amazing grace that comes from God above.
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*The above was written in May before my trip in Adelaide. After my trip, God gave me a surprise.
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Many years ago, by God's divine providence, He brought me to Covenant EFC. That was the lowest point in my life. I spent a good 6 months there and met a group of wonderful brothers n sisters.
Almost 15 years later, God brought my family and me back to Covenant. It's strange how things turned out. I can only say it's all in God's plan in His own time. A few months ago, I was sharing with some close friends how I felt God is calling me back to Glory, the church I grew up in. The only obstacle is my hubby who wanted to explore other options which I wasn't keen. Less than 2 months later, God changed my heart. My friends and I decided to check out Covenant. My hubby, out of curiosity, agreed. Stepping into Covenant again gave me a sense of familiarity and warmth. I was glad to see some of my old friends. After the first service, a sense of peace which I've not felt in the longest time came over me. Naturally, we started attending the services the second, third and then fourth time. By then, we were quite certain this is where we want to worship.
Many pp may wonder and thought it must be tough on us. To even entertain the thought of moving on at our age can be daunting. However, the overwhelming sense of connectedness, peace, joy and contentment is more than suffice to indicate to us this is God's will. It's liberating because I no longer feel the bondage that hindered me from worshiping Him in spirit and in truth. What can be more important than the assurance God has given to me, my family and my close friends.
God is good all the time. This for sure I know as I've experienced and tasted His goodness in the weeks that follow as I stood at that crossroad some time ago, believing In His faithfulness and committing my next 15 years or more to Him.
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